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 I’ve been trying to refrain from writing anything for the best part of this lockdown due to my mental health being in the gutter, but with lockdown easing in a few days, I think it might induce high serotonin levels of the entirety of the UK.

I can only speak for myself, but this lockdown has truly been the toughest one of them all. I feel like with the other two it was just all up in the air; the first one was completely unknown to us, the second one was like ok no direction just vibes, but THIS ONE has been a true testament to the attachment I have to planet earth. I think sometimes when the tough times LAST, you begin to question yourself and your feelings and for me it only makes things worse. Pre-covid if we were having bad days we could take ourselves on dates, go for dinner with a friend, literally everything we have currently not been permitted to do and tbh not being able to cheer yourself up sucks. Ordering clothes ain't doing it for me like it used to (hasn't stopped me tho lol)

However, it hasn’t been all bad. That summer body is pending for June 21st; ya boy also got a new job, shout out to me, myself and I. My optimism reached new heights when Boris said 21st of June, doors will open. I’m going to live like I’ve never lived before and it truly makes me uneasy how little home training I may have this coming season LMAOOOO (kidding lol). 

But in the same breath, I feel for many people, the doors opening isn’t really an easy thought to process. Lockdown has induced social anxiety for people who may never have had it, accentuated pre-existing mental health which can be worsened in social scenarios, and all in all induced fear in regard to being in public vicinities. 

I hope and pray everyone looks after themselves and I hope you don’t push yourself to be social for the sake of it. It’s gonna take some people longer to recharge and familiarise themselves with outside life and that’s totally okay.

Anyways, if I don’t write again anytime soon, I hope summer is enjoyed responsibly and I hope you listen to your mind when shit doesn’t feel right. Slow and steady wins the race.

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